Did you ever smile in front of everyone but not really feel like doing it? Did you ever laugh with them but deep inside you are crying? Did you ever say you are okay but you know that you are so much hurt? If yes, you are called Eccedentesiast.
Eccedentesiast or a a pretender. All of us pretend, maybe not often but sometimes, but all of us do. When you hear the word pretender you think that it is a negative thing but no, it's not. It also has a positive meaning when you look deep into it. Every pretender has its own reason why he or she does that. But the main reason is, she doesn't want anyone to worry about her that is why she is showing that she is okay so no one else will suffer but her. She is carrying all the pain all alone so don't judge her. Even though she has a choice to tell it to her friends, she chooses not to. Another reason why she fakes a smile because she doesn't want anyone to pity her.
For me, eccedentesiast people are strong, brave, and independent because even though it is really hard for them to smile, laugh or even live, they still do, not only for them but also for others. Because when others see them sad, they will ask her what is wrong and maybe her sadness will be a problem for others. Strong because she carries it all alone even though she knows that she is so weak at the moment, Brave because even though it's already hard for her she is still trying and she is not giving up, and last Independent because she can stand alone with her head up high facing everyone with a smile that is not really true and that smile is saying that she is a fighter and because of that I salute her.
She is alone, she is at her weakest point, she cries when she's all by herself because no one will see her and she knows that no one will ever understand what she's going through. But did you know that most of them are just waiting for a person to hug and tell them "Everything is going to be okay. Even if things don't feel okay right now, someday it will be" But when? When will someone recognize the sadness in her eyes? And another question is who? We don't know but one thing is for sure, that person who will tell her that is the person who knows her so much. Even though that person won't understand her, it's okay at least that person will comfort her, wipe away the tears in her eyes and that person will never leave her.
This kind of girl, you never really know what is going on inside her head, you never really know how hard it is for her to get up, you never really know what she has been through. You don't know anything because all you see is her smile, her laugh, and her activeness. Psychology says that most of the people who are hyper, naughty, and active are the saddest ones. I can say that is is really true and they are also quiet when it comes to talking about their self.
I salute this kind of people, because I know how strong they are and I also understand them because for once in my life I became one of them, or am I still one until now?
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