7 - To the boy who left me for another girl.

Hi, so how are you? It's been a month since we officially broke up. I thought it's really my fault why you have been so cold for the past few weeks of our relationship, I thought I was just really immature because that is what you told me, I thought you just need your time alone and you're busy with your studies, but I know that I’m just fooling myself to believe all this because I don't want to accept the fact that you don't love me anymore and you're in love with someone else and you already left me. It's hard to accept the fact because I love you, so much. But I guess the only constant thing in this world is change, and your feelings already changed.

"Forever and Always" that is what you told me, but I guess your forever only lasted for a few months. How am I you may ask? I'm good, trying to bring back the old me, the person who is happy with her life even though you are not a part of it. I was happy before you came, I'm contended with my life, but you came destroying my quiet world. I'm not regretting that I let you inside my life or blaming you, because I know for a fact that I ‘am happier when I was with you. You turn my quiet life to a joyful one, it's like I'm in a carnival riding a carousel but you came and ride with me at the roller coaster, it was that fun, amazing, unexpected. But just like any other rides, there is always an end, well maybe this is 'our' end. We had a lot of memories together, celebrating monthsaries, watching movies every month, random dinner dates, simple love quarrels and joy rides at night when everybody are asleep and dreaming we're busy exploring the city. I thought those were enough for us to be together, but no, its not enough because if it is, you wouldn't leave, you wouldn't get tired with me.

I became a fool because of loving you, instead of listening to my brain I listen to my stupid heart because of my love for you but you fooled me, you let me believe that I’ am the only one, that I 'am enough for you, but the truth is I’m not. Even though you’re cold to me I stayed because I know that I’ am the only one, a month later I’m already getting tired of our relationship, so I just don’t talk to you anymore but we don’t have any closure, we became okay after a week then one day you just told me that I should stop already, because you and the other girl is already together. It just hurts the heck out of me, really. But I have nothing to do anymore, if you love someone you just let them go so I let you go and let you be happy.

It still hurts me because I loved you, but at the same time I’ am happy because I let someone like you get off my life. I actually feel sorry for the girl because you might do the same thing you did to me to her. And I know that I deserve someone better than you, someone who will be contended, won’t look at other girls, and won’t change me because he loves me just the way I’ am. I hope that you will be happy, even though you hurt me, you became a part of me that I will never forget and you made me happy. I will always remember how much you cared but I have to move on and be happy with my life without you.