11 - Secretly liking you

Do you ever feel like you want to tell him how you feel but you're afraid to be rejected? Because it is not normal for a girl to tell a boy what she really feels for him because we are Filipinas, we are supposed to and expected to be demure. Yeah, it sometimes sucks to be a girl.

Keeping your feelings for him is not easy, especially when he is around or near. You can just feel your heartbeat racing when he is around, your heart skips a beat every time he talks to you, trying your best not to be obvious that you like him, trying not to break the eye contact between the two of you when you talk because you can't help but melt deep inside every time your eyes meet, you get so weak when he looks at you, you always wish every 11:11 that you will also be special in his heart. Yeah, it's that hard to be a girl. Sometimes we wish that we could be the boys so we can confess our feelings for the one we like or the one we love, but it is impossible to happen. The most we can do is to wait for the guy to admit his feelings for us which only have a 25% chance, if only we can do a chant so they can like us back but it is kind of weird and creepy.

We got flattered by the simple things, for example when you caught him staring at you, you'll feel insecure but at the same time you're thrilled but the hard part is keeping your smile from him because he might suspect that you like him, which is true. You often see something sweet in his simple gestures. Your trying to give your attention to someone else but every time you do this he will do something special that will make your feelings for him come back again.

Sometimes you just want to shout at him and tell him "Hey you! I like you!" Especially when your feelings for him are already over flowing. You are thorn between telling him what you feel and keeping it a secret. You want to move on already but there us still a chance in your heart that he might like you back and he is just sheepish to tell it to you. You don't know how to act in front of him because you have no idea how he thinks about you. You just want to be in his point of view so you can tell if you have a chance or not.

Yup, it is that hard to keep your feelings for someone. You don't want to risk your friendship and your awkwardness just because you want to confess your feelings for him. You don't know how he will take it because boys are so different. You can't do anything but to hope and wish he also likes you.